The Opposite Sex

I have long since been painfully aware that I have problems with women. That being the case, I had resigned myself to rewarding friendships with the few that took it upon themselves to be friendly. It seems even that small consolation prize is too much to ask. You see shortly after I got to the US, I got friendly with this girl, who we shall call "SmallSD". She quickly became my very good friend bacause I felt that out of all the girls I had been around, she was the one who treated me the nicest. As a means of safeguarding the friendship, I took special care to resist any impulse to attempt to advance the relationship further. This helped the friendship to run from roughly late 2001 to date...

It turns out that I needn't have bothered because from what I hear, she has been telling people that I liked her and always wanted to date her and she didn't give me any chances. The only reason why I would not believe that this is true is that this news is coming from sources she is not on speaking terms with at the moment and therefore their objectivity is suspect.

Anyway, I confronted her about it and she denied ever doing such a thing...Thing is though, I am far from convinced. It really calls our friendship into question and I'm at a loss as to whether to keep things going or abort..

Point of all this is, even friendships with women is proving difficult for me and there is no reason for me to believe that this will change anytime soon. If I was the type who believed in karma, I would simply assumed that all this is because I had commited great wrongs in my past life. Since I dont think thats the case, I can only wonder what the devil is wrong with me that apparently is ok with everyone else I know....comments will be appreciated if u can make sense of my rambling!!!!